Saturday, 25 May 2013

New Hair

Dyed my hair to a more natural color few days back..and I really loveeeee it!
It's ash brown with greenish undertones that makes it look really 'autumny' in real life.
Really hoping this less cosmic color will help loads in looking normal during interviews...


I still remembered an interview I went in my blond hair for a month ago when the interviewer felt I look too outgoing for the job... Seriously -.- 

In any case, I loveeee this hair color so much! It's even more prettier in real life!

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Some updates! 
School's going to be over for me in a few days time and I am heading to Korea for a 10-day trip in June!

I CAN'T WAIT!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT!!!!
I CAN'T WAIT!!!!



planning the itinerary for the trip is a pain in the ass though

Wednesday, 15 May 2013

No I am not like that

Lately, it dawned upon me that I am vindicated from the harsh judgements I had of myself for 2 whole miserable years. Harsh judgements of myself that developed from sliding down the slippery slope of believing in what somebody had to say about me. 

No I am really not low in my self-esteem.

No I am not a pessimist. 

No I am not ignorant. 

No I am not flippant when it comes to intellectual discussions.

No I am not someone who sits on the couch and waste my time away.

No I am not dependent.

No I am not insecure.

No I am not someone with no big dreams. 

The adjectives or social cues that made me feel really hateful of myself for 2 whole years have showed me that what one person can say about me, could so easily affect me to believe myself as such. 

For 2 whole years I was really confused because I have never seen myself as being insecure, lacking or even more absurd to me, a pessimist!, but I had to hear things like that said to me which led to a development of an internal battle with myself. Questioning and questioning myself, am I really insecure, am I really dependent, am I that lousy? And before I knew it, I believed in it. 

If you understand the theory of confirmation bias, I started to regularly and selectively search for answers in life that goes in sync with me being insecure and all the other things said about me.

The pessimist title tagged to me by someone, made me a pessimist.

The insecure title, made me act in an insecure manner.

The ignorant title, made me refuse to be bothered about anything.  

Fortunately, fortunately, I have in recent times, vindicated myself of all these ill judgements that were chained to my limbs, negative tags that made me all heavy burdened and unexcited about life. 

Sometimes, the best thing you can do to free yourself.....is to leave some people behind.



And never look back.




Wednesday, 17 April 2013

Koh Grill & Sushi Bar + Royal Pudding + Brotzeit

Finally dined at Koh Grill & Sushi Bar today! Have been wanting to try the shiok maki with the girls for a very long time but didn't have the time to head down..
Anyway, we queued for 30 minutes to get in the restaurant and later realised they accept reservations -.-
Shiok Maki Gen 1 is really good! I think what makes this sushi taste so wonderful is the creamy sauce together with the dollop of fish roe. It's just many pleasures put together. I am not quite sure what sauce is that but it seems to be some cheesy mayonnaise that is very light in texture but fragrant in taste such that you won't feel it's too rich. Also, I think the slightly burnt mayo plays a huge role in the fragrant taste. It taste like grilled sushi..yums..

Gen 2 Shiok Maki doesn't taste as yummy as gen 1's...it just taste...normal..

All in all, Shiok Maki isn't the best sushi I've had! I think Sun with Moon's spicy salmon maki is still #1!!!

Nothing great about this asparagus with pork belly. Had 1 and can't be bothered to take another..

I love this grilled squid!! It's super addictive...Especially the burnt tentacles part..it's chewy, super well seasoned and just goooddd..

We ordered fried salmon skin too but I forgot to take photos of it!



For desserts we headed over to Paris Baguette..
Although we had bad experience with the meal we had previously, we wanted to try the much raved Royal Pudding..


$4 for a small glass jar of pudding...
But it's so yummy!!!! The pudding is a bit like the texture of yogurt..it's sweet, rich and extremely creamy...Love it so much I can't wait to have it again! Will probably try the strawberry flavour next.



We ordered Dark Brown Brioche and Apple Pie. 
Thoroughly disappointed with them though. We concluded that besides the Royal Pudding, 
Paris Baguette is just over-rated. 

Some trio photos <3


Happy Birthday my pretty bff!



We had after hours beer at Brotzeit..a really nice place to chill with your pals!



The fries there are goodddd...


Had a really deep heart to heart talk with the girls over beer and tea.. I am so glad that we are still sharing secrets with each other. Hitting 23 this year, it dawned on me that we are no longer young. In fact, I can already feel the old-ness and the ageing not only physically, but mentally and emotionally. 
When I was 18, 19, I loved celebrating my birthdays but after 22, I just dread adding on the numbers to my age every year. That's why I am secretly smirking about being a november baby. 

So many plans to make and emotional blocks to overcome...


but first..


let me settle the last exam..

and then..

the last 5 weeks of summer school


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ok random selcas







Thursday, 11 April 2013

Having so much hate for people and being so sensitive that you have to twist the meaning of what others have said to suit your insecure thoughts......just makes you look so small and pathetic

Not everyone is dissing you so stop thinking everyone hates you and looks down on you.

Really just stop.

Have some confidence boy and really just stop hating on others.